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...because we can't be imprisoned all our life in a pain that comes from our past.
But some days, it's really hard to deal with that. This day is one of them, especially difficult. Feeling really really bad. Wanna cry all the time. Soabing all the time. Really tired. Wanna isolate myself. Wanna run away somewhere, don't know where. don't want to see anybody. Can't stand any sounds, any voices.
And that's why... 5 years ago. My family situation has changed for the worst thing I never knew I could live. My family broke. my dad's gone. And even before this....the situation was really hard to live. So much tensions. All the time. Each day.
I tried to carry on a lot of things on my shoulder, thinking I could support them without problems. But I was wrong. Really wrong.
5 years ago, I began to develop symptoms of depression and then, I went into it. It's only 1 year later I accepted it and started a treatment.
At the beginning, it was really difficult because I couldn't see what was good with it. I couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel....well, I didn't see the end of the tunnel.
Depression. Anxiety. Health troubles. Overeating. Everything was there. Unbearable. And I couldn't control anything. I was losing it. Completely. And I was losing everything I loved to do. Everything seemed to break step by step. and I just could watch them.
When something seemed to get better...everything broke afterwards. Crisis. Crying endlessly.
But...
I know today is different. Even if I live it again sometimes....I know it's different. It's just some days aren't easy at all and I start to collapse again for some reasons. But Where it's getting better is I'm always trying to help myself when I feel this way. Trying to look for solutions in order to get better.
Yes. I'm getting much better than before. I have goals in my life. I want to keep up.
It's just some days, it's really hard. Really really hard. I just can't forget what happened to me, to my family 5 years ago. All this fu**** pain.
I'm just really grateful to have some beautiful friends around me too. They always supported me as well as my family! (even if I didn't always tell them everything about it...I was really quiet).
I just know now everything seem to raise up again and I want to hold this light in myself.
I'm not trying to complain myself at all but....I think it's really important to share this kind of experience because I know I'm not the only one in this situation, some cases are worst than me.
Don't forget: Depression is a real illness. Not something funny. Not something to ignore. It's a real fight.
It was just some words...felt the need to write them down here because it was a bad day today...
...But other days are waiting for me. <3
Dragomira.
But some days, it's really hard to deal with that. This day is one of them, especially difficult. Feeling really really bad. Wanna cry all the time. Soabing all the time. Really tired. Wanna isolate myself. Wanna run away somewhere, don't know where. don't want to see anybody. Can't stand any sounds, any voices.
And that's why... 5 years ago. My family situation has changed for the worst thing I never knew I could live. My family broke. my dad's gone. And even before this....the situation was really hard to live. So much tensions. All the time. Each day.
I tried to carry on a lot of things on my shoulder, thinking I could support them without problems. But I was wrong. Really wrong.
5 years ago, I began to develop symptoms of depression and then, I went into it. It's only 1 year later I accepted it and started a treatment.
At the beginning, it was really difficult because I couldn't see what was good with it. I couldn't see any light at the end of the tunnel....well, I didn't see the end of the tunnel.
Depression. Anxiety. Health troubles. Overeating. Everything was there. Unbearable. And I couldn't control anything. I was losing it. Completely. And I was losing everything I loved to do. Everything seemed to break step by step. and I just could watch them.
When something seemed to get better...everything broke afterwards. Crisis. Crying endlessly.
But...
I know today is different. Even if I live it again sometimes....I know it's different. It's just some days aren't easy at all and I start to collapse again for some reasons. But Where it's getting better is I'm always trying to help myself when I feel this way. Trying to look for solutions in order to get better.
Yes. I'm getting much better than before. I have goals in my life. I want to keep up.
It's just some days, it's really hard. Really really hard. I just can't forget what happened to me, to my family 5 years ago. All this fu**** pain.
I'm just really grateful to have some beautiful friends around me too. They always supported me as well as my family! (even if I didn't always tell them everything about it...I was really quiet).
I just know now everything seem to raise up again and I want to hold this light in myself.
I'm not trying to complain myself at all but....I think it's really important to share this kind of experience because I know I'm not the only one in this situation, some cases are worst than me.
Don't forget: Depression is a real illness. Not something funny. Not something to ignore. It's a real fight.
It was just some words...felt the need to write them down here because it was a bad day today...
...But other days are waiting for me. <3
Dragomira.
PRINTS SELLING FOR HELPING
Hello everybody Hope you're doing fine! I am still selling prints for helping an Association Chats'franchis in France who saves cat and kittens. They really need money so I decided to help them by selling cosplay prints! ~ One size: 15X20 ~ Price: 3chf/3dollars ~ Shipping; 5chf/5dollars ~ Please, send an email to dagobeeler@hotmail.com with your choices from the album (ex: Aerith 4, Ghostblade 1...etc) and give your complete adress. Choose here: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.256742506460695&type=3 Payement is by Paypal. I can accept E-Banking. Thank you very much so far if you decide to help and to buy some prints ♡.
SELLING PRINTS for HELPING STEP 2
~ PRINTS SELLING SIZES AND PRICES: ~ A4: 5chf / 5euros / 5 dollars ~ ~ A5: 3chf / 3euros / 3dollars + Shipping: 5chf / 5 euros / 5 dollars Please, send me an email here: dagobeeler@hotmail.com With your choices! (Write the first title of the pic, like Aerith Gainsborough 1, 2...etc.). Here are prints here: https://www.facebook.com/DragomiraDreamMusic/posts/256742543127358?notif_id=1633256968944901¬if_t=feedback_reaction_generic&ref=notif I will give you everything about the payment. Everything will be given to the association Chat Franchis in France, to help them to pay the debt they have with the vet. I will not keep anything and I do that to help them. If you do not want to buy prints but still want to help the association with giving a bit money, here is the link of the crownfunding: https://www.cotizup.com/chatsfranchis... In France, association do not have the right to get grants so they have to pay with their own money.....it is getting difficult and now
SELLING PRINTS FOR HELPING
~ [ANNOUNCEMENT : PRINTS SELLING FOR HELPING ] My friends, let me tell you more about it: A friend of mine came to me to talk and she asked for my help: She has an association for rescuing and helping cats who are abused and abandoned. There are almost 250-300 cats in the association. But in France, an association cannot have any grants and they have to manage to pay the vet and else.....but today, they have a high money debt and the vet has refused to take care and heal the cats as long as they did not pay it.... They have to gather this money until the end of this year....that is why a crowfunding has been started to gather the money...and to count on the generosity of people. I cannot do a lot on my own but the only things I can do with Cosplay is to sell prints and to gather money for the association. That is why I decided to sell prints. I will create an album only for that very soon on my FB page: https://www.facebook.com/DragomiraDreamMusic/ If you do not want any prints but
Witness of a major depressive disorder
Hello guys!! ~ If you are interested in this, I created an IG account for my witness, my story. You all know that I went through a major depressive disorder and after more than 10 years of psychotherapy process, treatment and else, I am finally able to see the end of this. It is an incredible feeling and I need to share this with you, like a witness, to tell you; It is truly possible to recover from this. So here it is; :) !!! :) :) Instagram.com/hope_safeandsound Feel free to follow me and share with me your story, your life, your witness, your emotions.
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I have only seen this as of today.
Thank you for writhing and sharing your feeling and thoughts. I cannot begin to tell you what a tonic to my soul this has been for me today. Somedays the lonlyness can get me so down, even breathing is a laboured effort, but you gave me a breath of fresh air
*hugs* thank you
Thank you for writhing and sharing your feeling and thoughts. I cannot begin to tell you what a tonic to my soul this has been for me today. Somedays the lonlyness can get me so down, even breathing is a laboured effort, but you gave me a breath of fresh air
*hugs* thank you